email to dad's sister

Your comment "I hope you get over it, because it seems like it's been a couple years" was hurtful and ignorant.
I have been holding in my emotions for more than half my life and to think that it will only take a couple years to "get over" the hurt is ridiculous.
It has been unbelievably difficulty to pretend all these years that everything was fine.
I was molested by my father - the one person who was suppose to be my protector.
He took away my innocence, my childhood.
He denied it.
No one protected me.
Nothing was done about it.
I was 8 years old.
My pediatrician didn't even report it when I went to see him for an infection - I found out recently, through my aunt Jeri, that he suspected I was being molested and didn't come forward.
Every adult in my family and around me let me down.
I had to live in the same house with this man - I had to separate "good dad" from "bad dad" in order to cope.
I had to attend family get-togethers with a smile on my face when I really wanted to cry or scream at someone.
I can't believe what I put myself through.
All I wanted was for someone to say to me at the time "I'm so sorry this happened to you, it was wrong and it's not your fault"
I grew up with extreme feelings of guilt, sadness, anger, and disappointment.
I drank as a teenager to numb the pain.
I had a nervous breakdown when I was 30.
I am on high doses of anti-depressants.
I was recently diagnosed with Fibromyalgia (a wide-spread pain disorder) which means I am in constant physical pain.
I have Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS).
I have Gastric Esophagitis Reflux Disease (GERD) which I take meds for, as well.
I go to physical therapy twice a week.
I see my psych therapist once a week.
I have panic attacks when I think of going to Visalia.
I have made a decision to only surround myself with people that are caring, nurturing and loving and don't suck the life out of me.
I have not spoken to my mother in 6 months because she does "sucks the life out of me".
Life may be short, but, I refuse to be around people that do not have my best interest in mind.
I do not believe that "blood is thicker than water".
I do not know when or if I will see any of you in the near future.
I take it day-by-day and I am concentrating on becoming a strong, confident, whole, loving, happy woman.